The most dishonest thing I have ever done

The most dishonest thing I have ever done in my life is that I was seeing a guy whom I am not that into in senior high school. If he doesn’t like me too much either then I won’t feel too guilty about this. Yet the problem is that I know he took our relationship very seriously.

He was my best friend in the first high school year. When time flies, we became more and more closer than before and every one took us as a happy couple, so did he. I am not totally an outsider for notice his feelings, but I still choose to neglect this. I am too afraid to tell him my true feelings, so we started to have dates and chat on lines or phone, though I am pretty sure that his is not my type. After going out a few times, he told me that he likes me very much and I replied “me, too.” I lied to him and myself. Someone said love is friendship on fire, yet I can’t see any light in our relationship. He even wants to study in the same university with me. I feel extremely sorry to see him planning our future with great joy and expectation. After we all finished the college entrance exam, I decided to tell him the true.

Finally, I bare my heart to him. Maybe we are hand in glove, but I only took him as a best friend. I am so sorry that I hurt him like this. I should tell him at the very beginning. He accepted my apology and agreed to continue our friendship, yet the pain is already done. I swear to myself I would never do this again.